Time to blog again i guess, since i have nothing better to do.
Life's miserable.. you cant seems to get satisfied with what you already have

Today's free tickets to 2012 was still okay..
Waited 3 hours for nothing and doing nothing meaningful but wait till the movie start
But the show was marvelous, the effects look soo real..
Gosh if only.. haiz why cant i forget about her..
Anyway, me, sis, bro and my cousin went for this movie.
And it made us miss the last train.

Im so wanting to play dragon age origins.
though its a single player, i like the graphics.
and story line.
Haiz, ITP and part time job don allow me to play..
Somemore my bro, most of e time playing it.

I really want another one... the one.. ya the one..
Hope can meet new friends tml as im going zouk to celebrate friend's bday
just thinking about friends, i saw my ex classmate..
and shes selling hagen daz ice cream... then tell me to buy><
donno if i was rite about going over in the first place or not..
5 bucks per cup, then she tell me buy 3 or 2..
Lol. i m ard so poor.. don leech me more..
end up i bought 1 only.

Sigh time to slp and stop thinking =(

stupid la.. lost my wallet with my ic again... ><

This made me come to 2 financial situation..

1. cancel my LTC trip and claim back the 600 dollars.. even though i can claim it back from edusave..

2. cancel my insurance savings account.. lose 850 bucks though i do no need to pay this year's one...

zzzz life sucks la..=(
pls give me advise..

when i see through the days, whom i spent with and how long.
i calculated...
1/2 on her, 1/3 on projects..
my goodness.. why is the proportion wrong?
And omg la.. why am i always saying gossips.. on myself somemore..

Haiyo..
Anyway.. i find myself getting more and more attached to her..
But i feel like i am the cause shes not studying =(
O no.. i feel bad..
This is the situation..
While she's studying and i am sleeping, She studies a little and thens wants to join me ><
When i have to go off to do project, she stay in club room and pretend to study.. only to find out that shes really sleeping..
WHen i say i cannot accompany her in sch.. she stays at home watch movie...
WHen i tell her to study.. she gives me that look..
Omgosh.. how to control her?

Haiz.. next time talk more...
Me just finished FYP..
Need to sleep..
4 days no sleep ard!!! Damm...

I have always think, that people with girlfriend or boyfriend are very lucky people.
They have someone to share about things, life or random stuffs.
There's always someone they can rely on when things go out of place.
Perhaps things are not really going in the way i am thinking as well..

Although there are advices from people with gf or bf that when u have one,
ur freedom is gone as well..
Consumer's advice, i'm not saying this becos i dont have freedom.
just random saying.. =P

Anyway.. after experiencing one.. i tend to
Have lesser time to spend on my computer,
Have more trips to go to the ATM machine,
have different eye view from people,
have lesser time to spend with family
Have lesser meals to consume,
have more fatigue after sending her home,
have lesser time with "boy" friends,
have more worries and troubles.
And many more -.-

However, it feels great to have one as,
there's a hand i can hold on to.
There's someone i can talk to at night,
there's .... ok why am i saying this?


Ok.. i've experienced it ard.. and stated out my worries..
I really hope she doesn't find this page.. OMG...
AND Please dont tell her..

this isn't working really well
i tot he changed, but i was wrong
i am so not going to do my job as comitee until i get the student plan..

I feel so emo now.
tot that watching bruno will make me feel better.
but things get worst..

i just wanna cut my chest open
and pull out my heart.
and end all this in 1 go.

arg
why do i always have this feeling?
ever since bbq i feel like dying..

things never seem to be better
no matter how i look
it always appear to be on the dark side.=(

always looking up
to someone to cheer me up
but never have this person been here =(

Pls god, tell me
tell me how and what to do now.
I dont think i can take it anymore.

gosh.. i think it may be the most..
nvm.. my first time bbq with the divers anyways...
the last time they had one i was busy with proj.. and i haven known them yet..
Now its bbq night at manfred's house..
the house is spacious and empty..
well, at least there's something i would never forget..
=( some bad things happen..

1. I lead lewis, cheryl, sue min to sit outside the hse for like 15 mins when the gate is actually unlocked.. =(

2. I started the big fire on the charcoal but burnt myself for it. And now its scared onto my skin.. D=

3. I kiap the tongs and it accidentally cut my hand, causing it to have an opening. After which i shell the prawns and it hurts like mad. Hopefully the blood was not on the prawns. Haha =D

4. I spilled china apple onto El's feet after she helped me to get a refill. Haha, kindness begets kindness. And i can rmb the whole scene, its not entirely my fault. its.. nvm.. i can put the blame on me ><

5. This bad thing didn't really involve me =P but i splatter charcoal onto Adonia's feet. Not like i wanted to.. its random... =PP

6. I dont think it'll be nice if i list all the bad things here o.0 soooo uncool.. haha. 0.o

After the BBQ, went with the remaining group to wei ping's house.
It would be bad if i just left the group right? i could have followed manfred to my hse.
But i have made major decision and decided to stay and accompany the group.
BUT they go wei ping house and slp.. -.-..
So we decided to all go out to the prata shop and drink somethings..
Gosh la.. ton a bit also cannot.. must go slp..
Ya.. then ur excuse would be u got training in the morning..

I dont know if this bbq would be called successful or unsuccessful..
As long as everyone had fun??
I cant really have much fun as .........
As........
O no.. i just cant say it here..
dots came out instead -.-

Here's an after and before photos of HAIR

I lazy to edit to make the white hair more obvious..
Yeah.. the left is Adonia, right is Sue min..
THe hair style same..
THe funny thing is that sue min is older than adonia by a year..
Haha..

Haiz.. so bored.. life getting more and more bored..
I need to find company..

Today, will be talking about forgiveness
To forgive somebody, one must live in the consequences of the person's sin.
Wow, can i really forgive someone?

First impression that comes in my mind will be my father.
Ha, will i be able to live in ...
nvm.. secondly would be that taxi driver..
My gosh... he makes me mad..
arg... indian driver.. reckless.. gosh..
Must all taxi drivers be like this?
Its either their rushing or they are driving slowly..
either they have business or not.
I can never know what they are thinking about..

today's theory lesson was alright..
The good news would be the dates have been changed to 31st instead of 7th.
Means i get to go! YESH!
ok .. maybe not that good.. as i still have fyp to rush up.. =(

Tml will be a busy day...
staying back late in sch i think..