I have this very bad headache today..
in the night.. argg...
now still having.. refuse to sleep becoz tml no school.. can stay up late..
Just watched Lost season 2 and relize it was the 2nd part of season 2..
means i skipped the first part of it.. -.-
but i still understand a bit..
O man.. i am sweating on my bed.. and i have no idea why.. tink its the headache..
Ate something that looked like panadol.. but no use.. i ate 2 pills also..

I just want to write this down somewhere where i can look back..
I'm writing this becoz i know they wont see this..
Why Boon Leng and Vee think that i am not doing any work..
1. I did not help them with 2 and a half days of filming.. becoz of church camp.. in which they had almost finished.. and wanted to exclude me from the group..
>> I already told them very before hand that i could not make it on this date nad yet they still choose to film on this date... AND ITS BECOZ OF SUKRI THAT BOON LENG WANTS TO CHOOSE THESE DATES WHEN I'M IN CHURCH CAMP... AND IN THE END?? SUKRI WAS NOT EVEN THERE TO HELP FOR 2 HOURS.. And ended up what happen? they say i take holiday while they do work.. and i have to take the responsibility for that.. There's a week before the church camp and yet they choose not to film..

2. They say even when i'm there, i'm not contributing to the film..
>> I tried to contribute.. but when i gave suggestions.. they say i trying to act smart.. thinking i know better than them.. (like when i say maybe vee can pan this way so that it would look better.. but ended up telling me to be cameraman/ editer.) So avoid these things i just kept quiet all the way.. and just do my role as producer..

3. You say i did not carry the boom mike properly..
>> When there's no dialogue, whats the use of carrying it?? only the sound of footsteps and phone ringing. So i just sit down? And thats the only time i sit and hold the boom mike.. and yet u make a big fuss out of it..

I know they said worst things then these.. but kenson translate it to a better, polite way of saying these.. I am not angry becoz of these but angry you saying with me is like not having me.. I'm sorry i did not live up to your expectation.. Hope i dont BE in the same mistake again..

Letting all of these out makes me feel better..
Cant take it anymore man.. sick of this..
Hope the reshoot would be better